Ultimate truth, Faith and Love

It was a time  when I felt anxiety, suffering, suffocation. I was aimless, clueless and it was more painful to watch worried and tensed faces of loved ones.I was dying and was not sure if I can make through this.
            Was I afraid of death? Certainly not... One day we all have to accept the final truth then why not now? For one second, I thought about my son , whom I love more than anything in this world. Will he be able to live without me? And instantly my mind replied , why not ??? He is born fighter, he will surly be get going.
            People were trying their best. Surly it was god's grace and all positive energy generated by family and friends which pulled me back.I was touched by love and  blessings sent by all my well wishers . I was overwhelmed by observing efforts put by my family.
             Hospitalization isolated me from the outer world, which was internally provoking many thoughts. Whenever I was closing eyes my whole life was flashing, I remembered visit made to my grandma, when she was in her last stage. I wondered about and experienced the pain of my bed ridden grandfather. I also thought - was I okay ??  Was I a good daughter, sisters, friend, wife and mother? whatever the answer is, how does it matter now? Now what??? What if I would'nt get chance to express my gratitude??? My undone plans?? But god has given me that chance , my faith in almighty has increased.  I am lucky to get that chance, to express my gratitude to the people I love and count on.

My huge respect ,love , tight hugs to all those special pals and loved ones without them life is meaningless. /\